FASTING: Sugar Free Day FIVE: Wanna THIN MINTS ransack the THIN MINTS freezer with me?
What I WANT to be eating is the heavenly Granola Girl Granola I ordered last week before the sugar fast started. It is mouth watering granola that I keep trying to justify is cereal, and during my sweets fast I allow Kashi cereal which is sweetened but not *WHEEEEEEEEEE* sugary. The granola is VERY *WHEEEEE* for me, so I do not 'want' it.
I also want to bust open the THIN MINTS one and a half Girl Scout cookie packages THIN MINTS that are 'hidden' in the basement chest freezer. I was just down there to switch the laundry and I found myself practically caressing the deep freeze. Sad, huh?
Not as sad as ferociously ripping into the Thin Mint box and the Samosas box and eating them all while standing in the basement mad at myself for eating them all and not having the self control to say no for a few more days! Not that sad. Go me? (Thanks for you fine folks PRAYING for me. The shred of self control is from you! Well from Ol Padnah. Right?)
I hate that I think so much about sweets. I hate that I cannot have a few little cookies and not want MORE.
I am going to go color my hair now. One absolutely cannot eat cookies with stinky dripping red haircolor on. And I am speaking tonight to encourage a group of mamas. Won't I smile bigger and feel healthier as I stand before them still sugar free on day five? I am made for more than this. I am made to crave. Are You?