I am not a debater, but I surely tried this week. In a women's Leadership series I attended with Lori Salierno, she said that when we find the thing that makes our heart beat faster and makes us want to pound on the table for the matter at hand, that is where our vision and leadership should begin to form. This week an innocently forwarded link set my heart pounding, put my little fingers to the keyboard and has kept me up late at night exchanging ideas. I risked my image (not that I truly have one or worry about it as long as I am honoring God) and opened my heart to this topic and now there is no stopping me...I know what I believe and am surprised in the ferocity of my expression.
As I have said all along during the past two years for my life as a Jesus Freak; "The only thing wrong with Christianity is the Christians! " It is so difficult to be a really good example of Christ's love on earth every minute of every day. I am always failing but then again I do keep trying.
My church, Granger Community Church, grabs the attention of the non believer, they strive to be seeker friendly, and they are a huge part of why I am a follower of Jesus Christ today. They love people as a church right where they are, they speak the local language so the message isn't lost, and they build believers who can go out and love the world. Unfortunately there are a lot of fundamentalists who not only disagree with GCC's format and methods, but they judge and condemn and tear apart the foundation of what WE DO because it isn't what they do.
If it was up to them I would be blindly going to hell. I think the wild, loving, out-loud environment at GCC works. And I will be working within the church in any way they will have me....I'm pounding the table for modern evangelism! I was feeling I needed more depth from my church, more serious study and less fun. I was considering looking at other churches that were simpler, smaller...but I have grown so much at GCC and I have so many relationships that I was really torn. After this week I realize my growth isn't going to come from attending another church...my growth is going to come from doing at THIS church what was done for me. It isn't about me, it is about people like who I used to be.
At last! I found something that is worth pounding the table over: http://www.sliceoflaodicea.com/archives/2005/10/granger_a_great.php
I should have three or four posts at the bottom...you will see I was QUITE passionate and QUITE lengthy. I am done with this particular conversation on this site, but I leave it a changed woman.
God gave me Ezekiel 11:19 and it clarifies what has happened to me this week:
"And I will give them singleness of heart and put a new spirit within them. I will take away their stony, stubborn heart and give them a tender, responsive heart."
I plan to do a lot more research, educate myself on other sites, the church movements in general, my bible, and of course blogging. And I may be pursuing a ministry degree in the next few years. *POUND! POUND! POUND!*